Why?

Why do I keep doing this to myself? Why do I watch movies like "The Wackness" (which is in no way wack) which is based in New york City 1994. It has literally thee most amazing sound track I've ever heard. It really takes me back.
It just makes me more upset that I am not where I wanna be. I just want to be there, I think about everything where I'd live, the places I would go. The things I would do on my days off. Just all the experiences Im missing out on right now. But hopefully karma will take me where I wanna be, hopefully all the good Ive done in my life will catch up to me...hopefully.
GOD IM EMO